the worst.

Goodness, I haven't blogged in forever. Seems to be a pattern. I have a great blogging streak, and then I quit for a long time. And then I pick it up again, and then I drop it. I guess sometimes I don't know what to write about. But right now, I can't sleep.
I hate it when I'm so tired and ready to sleep and then my mind takes over and I begin to think about a million different things. Because suddenly, I'm no longer tired and I can't sleep at all. It sucks. Sometimes, I wish I could control my brain and make it stop thinking. Because really, I seem to start thinking about a ton of different things at the most inconvenient of times. Maybe it's stress. There's a lot going on lately. School, college apps, scholarship apps, family, holidays. I mean, I'm loving every second of it (minus the school, minus the college apps, minus the scholarship apps...). It's just that my mind can't seem to take a break when I need it to. There's always something to think about. Even my tiredness can't save me now. But then again, my mind can't seem to think when I need it to. Goodness, everything is so flipped and backwards and it's frustrating. 


I just want to go to some fourth dimension where I can live in happiness and clarity and I can get some peace of mind and dip my toes into some fourth dimension sand and listen to some fourth dimension music and not be disturbed by anything that is currently going on in my life or in the world. That sounds nice.